I am in the thick of the whirlwind christmas and new years season, starting in fresno, going to disneyland, back to fresno, back south to San Diego, and out north and east to Utah before returning to fresno. in total, i will have total travel of 2380 miles. 834 of those miles happened in 4 days. three travel days (from FNO to DL, from DL to FNO, and then from FNO to SD) and one day inside disneyland. First a synopsis of Disneyland.
The best coaster by far was California Screamin'. it actually could compete with many of the coasters in other thrill parks, there was no clicking climb to the top of the biggest drop, it was extreme acceleration to the top and a drop. it is also the only disneyland ride that does a flip. pretty insane. Most of the attractions were really good, The Jungle Cruise was extremely funny, and quite intelligent with its humor. Space Mountain was really good for the fact that you cant tell what direction you will be going next. Indiana Jones was interesting, and so was the Matterhorn. Star Tours wouldve been great had it ended about five minutes earlier, by then end it was too much and had given me some extreme motion sickness, luckily it ended before i left the contents of my empty stomache behind. The Haunted Mansion was great, but thats because there is nothing better than The Nightmare Before Christmas. I think all thats left is the Finding Nemo Submarine. It blew my mind how they put it together and how great it looked. The Tower of Terror was great, but their hologram images kinda started to slowly destroy my Occipital Lobe, but the drops were great, and the floating quarter was really cool. The food was beyond wicked expensive, but the Dole pineapple float thing was mind blowingly good. with that, i tied a cherry stem into a knot with my tongue for the first time without cheating. i was proud of my skills.
San Diego:
I saw some great people again, and some people, well... i couldve done without. My cousin Sean was great, His girlfriend is amazing, and His dad is an amazing person. My other cousin also brought a friend, and she was sarcastic and hilarious, and quite qwirky, definitely an interesting person. The trip was mostly spent with Sean and his girlfriend, they were the most fun and interesting people, had the same sort of humor, and were intelligent. They may have also been the only people that didnt complain or belittle everything. but it was a great house. Mostly built by My step-uncle. ill give you the photo tour if you ask nicely. Other than that, it was just really nice to lounge around and do very little. My grndma's birthday was the day after christmas, and we went to the beach. it was really windy and quite cold, but after we got the bonfire going, it was nice. My cousin and i ran out to get pallets from the back of stores. We got around to the backside of PetCo and Smart and final, and thought we might get busted, but the guy came out and told us to take them to get rid of them and where to find more. It was fun. We sat around the bonfire and talked for quite a while. that was pretty much the summary of the time there.
Utah:
Im only the second day in, and last night My brother and I ordered UFC 92, and it was by far the biggest fight card in the history of UFC, and it lived up to all the hype. Nothing made it past the second round, no decisions, all KO's and TKO's. it was explosive and awesome. Today was the famiglia christmas, my large present was the money for DL so all i got was little things. A single serving tea pot, some tea, a sweater, The dark knight DVD, and some really great gingerbread men boxers. My mom really is the best. oh and i also was given a laptop by my parents, they recently bought a new one, so i inhereted their old one to replace mine. And so far, thats what has gone down. More later after more happens.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Never Go to Sleep Angry...
...or at least that's what they say.
Its probably good advice for most, but some people need the time to clear their heads and begin to think more logically instead of with anger and contempt. Perception is everything in a situation, one side may see it as a rational conversation detached from emotion, while the other sees it as emotionally charged. It may seem as though it was an innocent observation through self reflection, but it can be read as a criticism of the other person. To out of the blue tell someone that you're having trouble figuring out how to keep the spark alive, but then attempt to tell that person that it has nothing to do with the relationship you have with them, it seems a little suspect. What would be the need of dissecting a dead relationship or many dead relationships, while you're currently in a young relationship that you have already called "different" than any previous. If it is so very different, then no matter what the experience is, it does not prepare you for the new situations. It would be a lot like creating a recipe. You have created recipes before and you know what ingredients it takes to make those, but its like using the old recipes when handed completely different ingredients. Truly great recipes are made when you find the way to make an ingredient shine on its own, yet compliment every other ingredient on that plate. Enough with the food references and this all together.
Trust is something to be earned, something to be gained, but when one side is putting complete trust in the other and not receiving an equal amount in return, it can lead to a shaky foundation. (yeah, building references now...) I understand that trust may take time to build, but there is an expectation of progress. If progress is stagnant for too long, it would give an air of hoplessness. Time is not an arguement in this case, if time was truly a factor, "you and I" would not have become an "us" so soon. Then again, maybe that is the issue, if things had progressed slower, you may have come to realize that this is not what you want and avoided it before it became a problem or even that you wouldve come to a point of trust before there was an expectation of it. You once said that you felt you had said and done things too soon, and sometimes i wonder if you were actually referring to the present and not the past. Is there hope that one day you will actually trust me, or are you trudging on in hopes that you will reach the point of trusting me, or has it gotten to the point that you realized you made a mistake and now you are pulling back enough that it just disintegrates on its own?
I guess it all goes back to differing perspectives, to feel as though your feelings are not being respected, while not respecting someone else's seems a little contradictory. I understand that I was wrong for sending you that text, and I admit that I did it maliciously and out of anger. It isn't excusable, but Newton's third law states it best "For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction." (I'm amazed, I've incorporated cooking, building, and physics all in the same blog.) This may only be a law of physics for determining forces and the like, it has a real ability to predict human nature. Just know that i was not the only one out of line last night.
/rant
All of this has been effectively talked out and solved, and I harbor no feelings of resentment, it was more out of backward reflection that all of this was written. No matter what, I Love You, and i cant wait until i see you in just over five hours to wish you a safe and fun trip. But right now, i need to write out Mar's card so that it is done before you show up.
Its probably good advice for most, but some people need the time to clear their heads and begin to think more logically instead of with anger and contempt. Perception is everything in a situation, one side may see it as a rational conversation detached from emotion, while the other sees it as emotionally charged. It may seem as though it was an innocent observation through self reflection, but it can be read as a criticism of the other person. To out of the blue tell someone that you're having trouble figuring out how to keep the spark alive, but then attempt to tell that person that it has nothing to do with the relationship you have with them, it seems a little suspect. What would be the need of dissecting a dead relationship or many dead relationships, while you're currently in a young relationship that you have already called "different" than any previous. If it is so very different, then no matter what the experience is, it does not prepare you for the new situations. It would be a lot like creating a recipe. You have created recipes before and you know what ingredients it takes to make those, but its like using the old recipes when handed completely different ingredients. Truly great recipes are made when you find the way to make an ingredient shine on its own, yet compliment every other ingredient on that plate. Enough with the food references and this all together.
Trust is something to be earned, something to be gained, but when one side is putting complete trust in the other and not receiving an equal amount in return, it can lead to a shaky foundation. (yeah, building references now...) I understand that trust may take time to build, but there is an expectation of progress. If progress is stagnant for too long, it would give an air of hoplessness. Time is not an arguement in this case, if time was truly a factor, "you and I" would not have become an "us" so soon. Then again, maybe that is the issue, if things had progressed slower, you may have come to realize that this is not what you want and avoided it before it became a problem or even that you wouldve come to a point of trust before there was an expectation of it. You once said that you felt you had said and done things too soon, and sometimes i wonder if you were actually referring to the present and not the past. Is there hope that one day you will actually trust me, or are you trudging on in hopes that you will reach the point of trusting me, or has it gotten to the point that you realized you made a mistake and now you are pulling back enough that it just disintegrates on its own?
I guess it all goes back to differing perspectives, to feel as though your feelings are not being respected, while not respecting someone else's seems a little contradictory. I understand that I was wrong for sending you that text, and I admit that I did it maliciously and out of anger. It isn't excusable, but Newton's third law states it best "For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction." (I'm amazed, I've incorporated cooking, building, and physics all in the same blog.) This may only be a law of physics for determining forces and the like, it has a real ability to predict human nature. Just know that i was not the only one out of line last night.
/rant
All of this has been effectively talked out and solved, and I harbor no feelings of resentment, it was more out of backward reflection that all of this was written. No matter what, I Love You, and i cant wait until i see you in just over five hours to wish you a safe and fun trip. But right now, i need to write out Mar's card so that it is done before you show up.
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